Since arriving here, almost a month ago, I have been having very disturbing dreams. Quite violent, and all around the theme of capitivity.
This, is odd for me. Yes, I have quite an active dream life, but typically the disturbing ones spread themselves out.
I’m not sure what to make of it all, but along with the violent dream life, there is a reoccurring face. He is one I have never seen before. His face is pale, his hair blondish, green eyes and his smile…well its good. And normally I can never recall faces in dreams. It is weird…
I’m reminded of the lyrics from The National’s Slow Show:
You know I dreamed about you. For twenty-nine years, before I saw you. You know I dreamed about you. I missed you for twenty-nine years…
Scary thing is, I think I know what the dream(s) mean.
I just don’t want to admit it to myself.