everything i love is on the table. everything i love is out to sea.

I’ve been composing posts in my head all week.

So much is weighing on me these days but I find myself paralyzed to write anything down.

He took these photos of me last weekend, while we hiked in the silent forest.

At first I hated myself in them, but they are growing on me.

In (un)related news, The National sad bastard music has turned to upbeat for me.

it’s the side effects that save us…there’s a science to walking through windows without you

I woke up this morning and couldn’t really swallow.

I knew it was the start of strep throat. Everything felt swollen and I had no other cold symtoms besides a fever. Also my ear was sore, but that’s normal.

I called in sick and then passed out again in my bed until about 3pm.

While lying in bed I scrolled through some music news and found out that The National had done a BBC 6 music interview and played some new songs.

I turned up the volume on my phone and set it next to my pillow and closed my eyes and let the music wash over me.

Pure bliss.

Honestly, (good) music heals. Especially when it’s your favourite band.

I conjured up the energy to go to the clinic where I found out I have a double ear infection and strep. Got my Amoxicillin, picked up soup and popsicles and went back to my bed, fired up my media player and put all three new tracks on repeat.

I will admit, this winter was rough on me and I think part of the reason why is because I stopped listening to music.

Remind me never to do that again, eh?

I am not my rosey self, left the roses on the shelf. Take the white ones they’re my favourite…

spring

Here in Vancouver we’ve seen the sun for nearly a week straight.

A-maz-ing!

After 4 long months without it everyone is rejoicing and basking in its warmth. I hope the rest of the country starts to see a weather shift soon. The parentals are leaving Palm Springs this week and probably going home to snow. Yuck.

Here’s a shot from my recent trip to Seattle. We shot on film, and I’m still awaiting some of the scans. This is an edit I did, the original photo was taken on a Fuji 210 Instax. I’m learning to like that camera a little more with each use.

i dabble in modernity

Loved this clip of Margret Atwood on Strombo.

Which book do you think should be taught in Canadian schools?

snaps

I need to start updating this space more regularly again, I know.

Trouble is I’ve been distracted with other social sites (cough Instagram).

You can check out my profile here and see what I’ve been up to.

Also, I’m in love with this photo. I want to create an art project with it.

currently…

digging the cover below lately.

excited for next week and visits from the east coast.

hoping all the drama and paperwork involved with importing  a vehicle will be handle soon. complete mess.

determined to tackle the heaps of laundry in my bedroom. mainly, so i will be able to close the closet door. it’s been a month of living out of a suitcase, time to start fresh.

remembering how much i love peanut butter and bananas.

currently…you are?

taste perversion

that’s what Google asked me when i typed in the following:

fluorometholone suspension ophtalmique (one of the three eye drops i’m on right now, four times a day to repair cornea damage) and weird metal taste in mouth.

do you mean taste perversion and FML? (the acronym for the drug, but also interweb slang for ‘fuck my life’)

why yes, Google, i do!

after i changed all the water filters in my house i couldn’t shake this horrible taste from my mouth, which i noticed yesterday in spin class while trying to drink from my water bottle. even water tastes horrid. i have to be on these drops for a month.

damn you eyes!

these eye drop steroids better work. not only are my eyes sore, i’m tired of looking like i have some kind of addiction problem with strung out bloodshot eyes all the time. and i have nice eyes.

anyway, happy thanksgiving!

what kind of pie did everyone eat?

these days

find me anywhere but here.

apologies…

except i’m not sorry.

merely inspired for the first time in a long time. it’s amazing how a few little changes in your life can remind you of everything that was missing.

life is good. for the moment. and that’s all that matters.

currently…

unable to get the new Mountain Goats record off repeat.

have a full dance card until late October. so many trips, visits and concerts to look forward to!

trying to live in the moment, and not fall head over heels.

hoping the insurance and mess with my car goes smoothly in the coming weeks. what a debacle that has turned into.

have a craving for cake. specifically pumpkin. perhaps i’m smelling fall…

currently…you are?

never say never

Look, I’m wearing lipstick!

That I bought. Huge deal for me.

I’ve never owned lipstick, let alone red lipstick before.

I’m still a tad uncertain, but I’m warming to it. As you can tell from the silly face and lip biting.

(Yes, I got to keep Bender even though it was made as a gift for the Ex-Boy. He was never taken back to Ontario on the plane, so eventually I reclaimed him.)