grapefruit spoons

I think I must be numb to everything right now, because even though the sky just fell it has yet to hit me.
Its a good thing I am going home in a week, because after I get my own doctor stuff out of the way, I’ll be getting on a plane to California. My parents [...]

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its lung cancer.
we don’t know much more than that at the moment. the stage, or whether or not its operable is being determined tomorrow. apparently the doctors haven’t been that forthcoming with the information, so my parents are headed down this week.
she’s still at the hospice, and since tuesday there has been such a change [...]

absence

It does make the heart grow fonder.
I believe I have a better relationship with my family because of it.
So I’ll stay here, and you be there and we’ll meet in middle.
In the ether, but in the corner especially reserved.
With paper tablecloths and paint brush utensils.
You’ll catch all my tangents.
And if you need me…
Four handclaps and [...]

foxtrot

i wear my grandmother’s wedding ring on my middle finger, right hand.
it was given to me by my mother, a few years back. she is one of 11 children. the middle child. out of all of her children my grandmother gave her the ring. its a simple gold band. thin, too small to fit [...]

and he died in the arms of his love

This song always gives me a little peace.
I’m not sure if I believe in heaven, but I believe in the hope of, something.

so we wait

Although I have dealt with a lot of illness and death in my short life, it always continues to shock me, no matter the age of the individual.
This morning we got news that my Grandmother’s husband collapsed yesterday, an artery burst in his heart, coupled with his cancer and now severe internal bleeding, he’s in [...]

but what you break is what you get, you wake up in the bed you make, I think you made a big mistake

Have you ever reached a place, not exactly knowing how it is you got there?
 
Take that on whatever level you want.
 
I don’t know how I got to work this morning. Somewhat concerning, considering I drive on a 400 series highway.
 
So many things are swimming through my head at the moment. So much is going on [...]

underneath the stars

Last week Mel and I started talking about box forts. I believe it stemmed from a Facebook status and then spiralled as most of our conversations do. And while I was looking for a childhood Hallowe’en photo to post over at A Cup of Coffey this week, I stumbled across these gems.
Who cares what’s in [...]

a big slice of lemon

Westcoast Walker tagged me for a musical meme, of my Top 25 most played tracks in my mp3 player. I am a fan of the repeat button, so many of these songs aren’t in my rotation now, but are so high up there its hard for others to break into the top. So here’s my [...]

i am feeling very 1993 today

I’m wearing my favourite blue plaid shirt.
It has reached perfect softness. Only took 15 years. I would have never thought to bring it over with me, but my mom sent it to me in a package. Thoughtful one, she is.
My family talks about mortality a lot. Lately, it just makes me sad.
As I get older [...]